The perils of ADHD

Let us talk of apples and strings, squirrels and shiny things.....
constantly buzz, buzz, buzz, buzzing....always swirling
things don't stand still ...how can they when my mind is twirling....................breath

living life going 100 miles per second....thrumming, humming ....never stopping
most people see you as disorganized, lazy, unmanageable...the bad seed, bad boy, bad bad boy... like some broken toy!
life is like a toy but it plays with you...spinning you this way, twirling you that, like you are on some giant fucking Spirograph!!
Spirals in, spirals out, Spirals up, Spirals down...out of control...downdowndown
to get you down they have to speed you up, the speed slows your thoughts to molasses...but you're good now ..............................right? right?!?
so maNY uPs AnD DOWns thAT it FeELs Like we went DOOOOOOOOOOWN the WronG Rabbit Hooooole...rabbits...sometimes you felt that rabbiting was the trick...run run run rabbit run...but we all know rabbits aren't the trick...tricks are for kids and you're no damn kid anymore.
For some this goes away...they get to be normal...who is to say what is normal...maybe normal is just numb....I don't get to be numb, I get to feel..not just feeling here and there but I get to feel EVERYTHING. Every little tiny movement, every tingling, every little scritch scratch of the tiny monster within.............
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                                                        ...................and he wants out, tired of being held in because polite people don't behave the way he does. All your life being told be polite, be nice, treat all well, remember the golden rule.......then you get out in the real world and you learn where polite gets you, what being nice and treating everyone well does. Screw the golden rule...the only rule about gold that matters is that if you gots gold you gots no rules. THIS is what the monster learns, but he doesn't get to come out and play so we just smile and go on.
So maybe now it's time to let the monster out, time to stop holding back, time to QUIT. BEING. NICE.